My eyebrows furrow when you talk to me.

My nose scrunches,

My mouth concaves,

My eyelids clasp together, 

My jaw clenches. 

My eyes look down when you sit next to me.

My arms locked to my chest,

My legs crossed in my seat,

My face turned in the opposite direction of yours. 

My heart aches when you look at me,

My head pulses when you talk to me,

My limbs numb when you approach me,

My eyes water when you touch me, 

My body quivers when your hands move. 

My fight or flight response is failing me, why, when I need it most?

I struggle to move, 

I struggle to speak, 

My mind goes blank, 

My legs grow weak.

My heart beats rises, 

My chest sinks,

My feet try to move,

But remain planted next to your seat.

And the time has come for something to be done,

How, why, and where has everything gone?

All I see is black and I realize my eyes are shut. 

If my mind can’t clear, I’ll give it up. 

If my body still shakes, then you’ve said enough. 

If my heart still aches, it’s time to heal. 

If my mouth still moves, then there’s nothing here. 

I tried, I tried, to run away. 

But with you my heart remains.

Alone, afraid, waiting in anticipation. 

Scared, tired, reminded of lingering sensations. 

For the time has come, this will end.

My eyes opened against the wind. 

My body embraces the light again. 

The separation of our tragic mend,

Only brings me back again.

To a state of happiness, is how I’ll remain.

Without you, my life will never be the same.