I believe you, I do.

I see you, I do. 

I hear you, I do. 

I miss you, I do.

I have created an image of you in my head,

In a field full of roses,

Foreseen, all dead.

I now know that you are selfish, 

And a liability. 

My happiness decreases almost instantly,

I cry after realizing I’ve had an epiphany.

What I knew,

What I’ve seen, 

It was unbelievable.  

It was put before my eyes,

Claimed unreasonable. 

I should’ve noticed the signs,

I should’ve seen it coming, 

I should’ve realized sooner that what we had was nothing.

Although what I feel is completely reasonable,

I should bring myself to understand what my feelings have come to.

Before the tide has submerged me entirely 

I’ll lie down and sink in all the irony 

That the people have bestowed upon me 

They knew, I did not 

It makes me think it was all a lie.

But that I know,

 is false in two pairs of eyes.

I can still see what we were like together 

Repeating the unkind words, the mean remarks, the greed and savagery of broken hearts

My lungs, my body, my mind, my soul 

Have been fumigated by the white lies told 

and I constantly reiterate that 

The vibes you insinuate aren’t shifted towards me

And I’m always wrong,

My emotions are always wrong,

My heart is always wrong,

For believing you.